eat, live, laugh.. NUA!

practically fully locked (:
and i add friends selectively.
heh.

so i havent had a proper public post in a really long time. i have not checked my friends list in a v v v v long time and i'm not planning to check it.
fyi. i dun get emails notifying me that pple have added me as friend on lj. (there's such a thing right?)  so heh.. i really do not know.



so hmmmm.. update to the public entries readers.
i'm fine. school has been hella crazy this term. it was mad rush for everything.
i barely had anytime for anything outside school and family. i had little social life cos sch took up too much time and i needed rest badly ( still do cos the busy period has not ended!!!)
xmas has come and gone, new yr, cny, vday has all come and gone. and i'm still me.. well. duh i've changed quite a fair bit as well.

afterall, the only thing that remains a constant is change.

so many things have changed. but i'm glad that my family is still here for me and i love my family so so so so so much. i love my parents i love my sister and i love my brother-in-law.
i'm also very glad that most of my friends are still sticking with me. for new friends and i'm glad that certain lost friendships are making their way back into my life.
i am thankful for having seen ugly sides of pple. as from there i've learnt, sometimes to forgive and forget. and othertimes.. that some pple are really not worth the time and effort.
i am thankful for my year2 classmates who made every friday so much fun. and for CREATING RECORD BReAKING SALES ON MY ASM WEEK! WHOOOHOOO.
i have failed but i will succeed the nxt time round. I MUST!!! hahaha.
i tried some new things before the end of my teenage years.
and i am still not ready to give my heart away yet.
exams are arnd the corner and despite feeling extremely exhausted from all that has happened for the past few mths ( no break, mind you), i'm gonna embrace it. and do my very best. i am not gonna let anything jeopardise my results.. which are so frikkin impt to me..


i try to evaluate myself from time to time. and i would say i've become stronger. i've become wiser. i've become less selfish in certain ways.. and more selfish in some other aspect. i would say that i have matured quite abit. but i wont say i'm entirely mature.. who is anyway right?

i've heard alot in the last few weeks that has put me in a confused state. a friend told me its sth that comes along with age.. they feel ready to share all that horrible things they've shielded u from in the past. i've learnt to accept them.

i struggle in a battle everyday. and i wish very much that i would emerge the winner all the time. but well... that's the way life is. u dont always win.
i faced with many many many many unfair situations. i still rant, i still complain cos i'm still a whiney girl, but at the end of it, life still goes on. i will suck it all up. and work my best at it. so just let me rant for a bit wont you?

but well. as much as all these sound a little sad.. i am pretty happy. happy because i've got the best family i can ever ask for. a fabulous bunch of friends who have stood by me for years and also newer bunch of friends who just make my everyday such a joy.

these sound a little sad because we face more challenges as we grow older. this road isnt getting any easier. it gets tougher. every new day is a new step into the life ahead of you.  we are faced with new challenges everyday. and things only get harder, everyday.
because with a greater age comes greater responsibilites.

at least i'm not running away frm all that, and being ignorant.
(:
so to all the challenges i have yet to face. all the disappointment and happiness i have yet to experience..
CHEERS!


well.. to end it all. i'm still me. i am still crazy. i still say tonnes of nonsense. i still laugh alot. i still smile alot. i still don't look fierce. i'm still whiney. i'm still annoying. i'm still always hungry. i'm still not v fat. i stll read. i still hold on to things v tightly ( not literally la ). yeaa. i'm still me. (: so if u were wondering how i've been. i've been fine. i've been coping, i've been happy, i've been sad. thank you (:

be good ya'll.